I never realized how amazingly hard a long distance relationship is to keep. He lives in Pennsylvania and I live in Florida. I hope to whatever power there is above me, that he comes down and stays. I'm sure he will. We have a good relationship. Very much in common and we have some good talks. I think I might overdo the talking a bit though. I keep him on the phone when we have nothing to talk about. I also think he is a bit distant right now. I'm not totally sure why but I guess I will figure it out. I hope. I really want this to work. We love each other. We tell each other everyday. I know it seems so soon but we just have this amazing connection and he has told me a lot about himself. He said he doesn't give his phone number out. But he gave me his.

Yesterday was a hard point in the relationship. He said he didn't think it would work because of my mom's reaction to him coming here. I lost my emotions and I said something that shook his confidence in me a bit. I think he has to overcome that right now. But if he does, and I know he will, then we will probably do much better. He says he doesn't mind waiting until May 9th to get his money to come down and see me. And I can't wait. I really wished he was here right now. Right now. Lying next to me. So I could hold him and make all the pain go away. He deserves so much more than what is happening to him there. I want to help. But I worry too much and I do it because I love him and I care. But I think it gets monotonous sometimes. I have to realize that couples don't talk for hours upon hours every single day. They do things. They go out. They have a good time. You call and talk for a little bit and then you move on. Doesn't mean you are growing apart it means you are getting healthier. So for all the power up there in the sky, I ask for you help in guiding me to the right path. I believe in fate and destiny and I know he is the right one.