I got a text two nights ago now from someone saying "I Love You !" It was my previous. Now I asked him if he meant that and he said yes. I asked him what made you send that and he said Dunno. I wanted to talk to him more about it but my phone started dying.

I have too much on my plate. I still have a lot of feelings for Dave. But now Jason likes me a lot too. Following my Heart has lead me down wrong paths before.

There are a lot of people I like. Will, Jason, Justin, Dave. It's a hard choice sometimes. I used to envy the people who had the option to take you or leave you but now I know how it feels. It's hard. It hurts. You hate hurting those who care for you.

If Dave asked me to start things up again...I think I might. I really do. Because I still do care for him a lot. He is just confusing right now. But then again, Jason is so cool. Great personality but...in the Gay world, men are attracted to the visual. I have to have an attractive boyfriend and Jason...well. You get the gist. That sounds so terrible but that is just the way it works.

Shawn is being a douche. He wanted to be friends with me again. I said yes. We had a good car ride. Talked and stuff. Now, I send him a text last night saying we should get together and rekindle things...nothing. Sent him a facebook message, nothing. So if he is going to be a coward and not answer me, that is perfectly fine. Means that there is someone so much better out there to be a friend to me. And how much of a friend was he to me anyway...? Ha.

Carpe Ominious, Take It All