I know I am a broken record. I say a lot of the same things over and over again. I just want you to know just how much I love you and care for you. I cry because I miss you. I cry when I hear a song that reminds me of you or our situation. I get scared because I worry that I will never see you again or something will happen.

When I think that though, I always remember what you said... Any endeavor. You are coming for me. You will not give up. We haven't so far despite all the odds. I'm sure most would call us crazy, stupid, selfish, making the same mistake, however, if you fail, try try again. I know how much I love you and I know how happy you make me when all is good. We are both working hard to maintain a life. As hard as it is, doing it together will make life much more enjoyable. Plus we will be able to do nice things for each other. It will make us both feel even better.

One thing in life that shouldn't be complicated is your relationship. Life is tough and complicated enough. Ours has been and in some ways, still is. I definitely know that this will change.

You have to make a lot of hard choices in life I noticed. So many things you wish you didn't have to do. Including cutting out friends or people that don't have your best interests at heart. I have done it. I had a friend for seven years who I was around all the time. Even started getting feelings and they grew and grew and grew until eventually it got out of control. I had to cut my own self off at the knees and say, no. I can't do this to myself anymore. I feel hurt and it's not going to way I had hoped it would. Plus this person doesn't feel the same way so what are you going to do? Force the issue. No one can be forced into love. No one. I don't care who you are. When you fall in love, it's meant to be. Two people come together and a connection occurs. A spark flies. A cupid strikes. Bliss.

I knew that if I did this, my life would get better. I knew that I would be able to move on and find a good man. And it just so happened, that I found the best man I could in the world. We just had to figure each other out and see how far we are willing to go for each other. I think we have determined that there isn't anyone I would rather be with. That's why I know you are coming, my man. You are strong, charismatic, charming, beautiful, and friendly. You have some of the best qualities!! Now once you put those to work, pfft! You are gonna be on your way honey baby.