You go to your friend for help and you are honest with him. You ask him for advice on what you think you should do. All he does is just sit there and judge you. I did the right thing. I did what I had to do and I was honest about it. I don't want an award. I don't want thanks. I know it is an extremely difficult thing. I understand.

He was walking out to my car with me and he was saying that he doesn't want me to take it like that. He doesn't want me to act as if he is throwing me out. So I am talking with him and he says of course he would have a natural bias against me but he is just bitchy lately because of the production. He said he would get over being mad. I said to him that I value his friendship above most people. (I don't know why I did. Repeat Did. I don't think this is a friendship anymore.) He says why, I am a terrible person. I said, You think you are but I don't. I don't know why but he hastily says I got to go and he just leaves me at the car. I say you always leave me like this and he didn't even look back. Didn't say a thing.

At what point did I deserve that? Why can't I just have a conversation and leave it on a good note? I have done so much for that kid and it is all for nothing. Because I am sucker.

I honestly don't know why I value his friendship. What has he done for me? Really? I don't think there is much at all. I'm always helping him and he knows it. He even said so. So is a little appreciation the worst thing? That's all I want. I have been with him and all I get to hear about is this new guy in his life. Constantly. I really don't like hearing about it because it's a slap in the face. He knows how I used to feel and yet he still does it. This road is so twisted that I think I have finally fallen off the edge.

What do I do?