I don't know why I feel this lonely in life. I have friends. I have family.

Why is it that those that I want I can't get. I have one person that I really really want but the world doesn't make anything easy. I will see him one day and I will grab him and hug him. Kiss him. I have to. I just have to.

I am still in love with him.

God, just thinking about these people that I fell for, I get so sad.

I always manage to find these people that I want...but they can't speak their mind. Or they can't do anything. They are powerless. I believe he is the one. Believe. Is that crazy? Can you find the one true at twenty? Over the internet? With just talking on the phone, granted we talked for hours at a time.

I don't know. I really wish I had money. Things would be easier. But then again, if I did, I probably wouldn't have met him.

I wonder if he feels anything like I am feeling...?