The love we have is so strong. I would be hard pressed to describe it to anyone. Love is something describable and it's something that many people understand. They have felt the same feelings. However, this type of feeling goes beyond. I think this kind of love is like Helen of Troy and Paris. Caeser and Cleopatra. Four amazing people caught up in love. Their love though, reminds me of the kind of fight we have to endure. We care and love for each other so strongly, it would break nations apart if we were royalty. Individuals would go to war for us because of how we believe in each other.

In all fairness, I would rather wake up on my death bed knowing that I was able to have one man that cherished, loved, and devoted himself to me because of how much he loved me, as I would do for him. Even though these feelings can be very tough to contend with, nothing good comes without sacrifice sometimes. All those messages I wrote are there to show you that my feelings will never be vanquished. They will never vanish. They will grow. Hugging and kissing you is like floating on a cloud. Just feels right. Like we are connected in so many ways.

I'll be happy to call you my husband one day. Let's get to work. : ) Build ourselves a future that we will never forget.

I hope you are safe. Fuck all the rest, I just hope you are all right and well. Even if you hated me, despised me, I just care about your well-being. You are a true love. My true love. I'm definitely a nut ball. I admit it. I just need to have my good times with you. I want you to fill my memories. My dying breath and flash of memory in a millisecond is gonna contain your face. It's gonna show me the angel that I was blessed with meeting.

This is a plea to you. I beg you. Hands and knees.

Please don't leave my life.

I usually only write in my blog when I am sad. When I have to talk to someone else, this is the best place to go. I am losing it thinking i'm going to lose you forever. I know what we have been through. Now that I know you, there is no comparison RB. I know I can succeed. I have failed failed failed. Even the best fall sometimes too. I would rather work hard, save, get a place and really feel proud of myself for having accomplished my goal. However, it won't be complete. Not without you. I will live a life alone, devoted to a man with whom I love desperately and completely. As odd as this will be of a comparison, there is a show called Naruto and it's about this kid who's childhood was one of hardship and being shunned. As he grows up, he learns to never give up in what he believes in. He works so hard to see someone who may never even want to see him or come back again. However, it doesn't deter him. He keeps fighting along because he believes with love and strength, WE have the capability of learning from our own mistakes and becoming tangible together. I'm so sorry. Maybe it would be easier to move on but I can't. I won't. Call me a fool, loser, idiot, anything. I very well may be. But at least I am a fool for you. And for your love.

My mom just came home and was talking about how some guy was hitting on her, asking her if she has threesomes!!! Did you walk around naked in Punta Cana?!! It's like, what the fuck is wrong with you? Who asks those sort of things!! I bring this up to say that god some if not most men are dogs!! If you do end up with someone who isn't me, please make sure he is a good man. Someone who treats you right and raises you up, not for anything else other than love. I still believe myself capable of being that man. I just need to be stronger. Speak and communicate. I felt so good chatting with you about it. I really feel we understood what a good life we can have. God we have tried and hard sometimes. I am so determined. I know all these words have been spoken but I just can't give up on you. I totally believe you are not a statistic. You are above it. You are strong and capable! I look at you and I am rendered speechless by your beauty.

I become emotional after I don't hear from you for a while. It makes me feel like I am never going to hear or see you again and that has to be IMPOSSIBLE!! I love you too much! I will work and work hard and achieve my goals. I need you to be part of it. I want you to be part of it. No matter what, you know I love you with all my heart.

Don't forsake me RB. You may not read this anymore but if there is a chance you can see this, it's worth a shot.

Not hearing from you feels like I've been cursed. I know you are out there thinking of me too, I just can't help myself. You know how I feel when it comes to you. I know we came to a really good understanding of how a good future can be obtained. I can see us having more amazing nights just like that one. It made me feel out of this world. I'm glad you are the one I can do that with and comfortably. That is true love. You are a dream. My dream. I may seem pathetic and desperate, but who cares. I am all of those things for you.

I know you will see me again, my ♥♥♥♥. No matter who says what, we have our differences. There are things we need to work on as adults. Like you said, not if..when. I'm here for you until I reach the end of my time on this earth.

"You are now listening to WCRB, 98.5" I always thought that channel was meant just for us.

I Love You.

Nobody loves you like I do.

Even when I reach the end of my rope one day, you will be there.

Forgetting about someone you love is like remembering someone you've never met. It's impossible.

It would be a lie if I said you didn't penetrate my thoughts all day. Every day.

One day, your arms will be wrapped around me again. Our lips will caress each other in ways only we would know.


One day, you will see the four of hearts again.

<3 RB